It’s a CHOICE!

No , I won’t say all men are dogs , not all are perverts . Not everyone a womaiser . No I won’t say it’s a great write up . 

But hey I tried , so you try tooo . 🌚

Hey you , listen up ! I have something for you..... Thank you for disturbing me late at nights , you are the reason I can’t sleep untroubled. 

I’m in a constant fear when you might just wanna grab me and use me for your wants . 

I’m again terrified, sitting in the corner  of my bed writing what I have kept inside for long . 

Love is beautiful they say , love is precious . 

But I’m scared of love  for all I have witnessed it is in your bed , the dark shady nights we spent . 

Daylight was never the perfect one for you to manifest love , and not for me too . For nights covered the horrendous face you made when you fucked me  harder. 

I realise how the entire world compliments my hair , it’s the most beautiful possession for a woman . But hey these long luscious hair were never taken care of. They have been pulled tight , clasped so hard that the scalp screams for aid now just like my internals do , shhh I hush them all . 

I know I have to speak up . I know I need to take a stand . I tried , I tried telling them that I don’t love  him . They silenced me they say “ what’s wrong ? It’s all fine “ 

What’s wrong is that I feel used ! 

What’s wrong is  that my checks have never been  kissed out of love ! 

What’s wrong is that my lips  have  been stained and  smudged not of the red lipstick i wore last night , but the blood and abject pain . 

Million hashtags going around the social media , I don’t need those fake validations because hey I need to deal with it at the end of the day . It’s just me and him . He is the monster and I’m his prey .

To all the ones who said what’s wrong , wrong is that it’s all lust , love does not exist . 

No I’m  not a bitch you wake up and fuck with ! But you are a bastard for you be so ruthless with ! 

No not your sex worker darling , 

I’m your Girlfriend .

I’m your wife . 

I’m your fiancé . 

Sex is not a duty , darling . Sex is a CHOICE . 

-Arya Gawade ( 15/11) 03:26 a.m.